Until The End.

Two years ago, on this day and very close to this exact time, Derek and I had just finished up our usual date night at the Riverwalk: Chips, queso and Miller Lite @ Los Cabos, a walk along the Arkansas River, and a movie, The Da Vinci Code. We were on our way home from Jenks, he was playing Hurt's "Danse Russe" and I remember the way the song, the warm summer air and just being with him made me feel. That night, 2 years ago, we became official.

And I still get that feeling when it's just the two of us, in the same truck, listening to Hurt. Danse Russe was a big part in my falling in love with him. He uses music as a way of expressing himself. He used that song to express how I made him feel. I hear that song and I get that exact same giddy, happy feeling in my stomach all over again.

That song has since been replaced as the ultimate song to remind me of him and put a smile on my face when we're apart. Not too long ago, we were lounging around after the kids had gone to bed and listening to various music DVD's..he put in Blue October which can be depressing and annoying, but he made me stop before I replaced it. He said this song always made me think of him, but a lot of Blue October songs did so I figured I knew which one. It was one I had never heard before and I am still addicted to this song. And it's my song to him as well. If ever a song was meant to be for us, this is it.

I can't believe the scrawny, curly headed boy I thought was an asshole in high school, the boy I would tell to turn around if he even tried to say something to me..is the love of my life. I'll never forget when I saw him for the first time years later, but I we became best friends first. I'll always remember when we crossed the line from friends to more and we both knew we made the right choice.
When we were friends, we both stayed at Tony's house after a night of partying. I was cold and curled up next to him and we both fell asleep, but he slept on the floor while I slept on the couch. He slept right next to the couch, and we somehow held hands the entire night.
I used to tell everyone that the girl who ended up with Derek would be one lucky girl.

A baby girl, plenty of good times with a few bad, an engagement, and 2 year later..I'm the lucky girl :)

And you give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
You give me a quiet mind and I...
I love you
Until the end