Easier.

I think sometimes I just forget to breathe and life passes by me too quickly. Then, I'm disappointed with how uninvolved and overwhelmed I am by it. Now I'm breathing and life is easier.

Derek and I are on the mend. Not surprising since I knew it would come..these things work themselves out. His work is the evil root of it all, and he's going to talk to them about his horrible 80 hour work weeks. Sure, we LOVE the money but we'd rather cut back on our spending money if it improves our attitudes around here.

I think my job was stressing me out as well. I don't know my job could possibly stress me out..it's easy. I'm a buyer, I evaluate what a seller has to offer, I make an offer, they either decline or accept. I've had one seller decline since I've started. I've had one raise in the not quite three months I've been there. I think it's more the unofficial roles I have up there..unofficial manager, unofficial trainer. And maybe that's in my head, but it feels an awful lot like when I was a retail manager before. I think my boss recognizes that and relies on me for certain things. I'm ok with it now. I have this ridiculous need to keep my boss happy. She's such a good person, a laid back boss who isn't afraid to let me know on my goofs but definitely lets me know what I'm worth. How many people can say they are truly happy with their job? I am sooo happy at mine!

The kids are doing great! We went swimming yesterday at Derek's parents, Nick's first time this summer, Zoey's first time, ever. She did good for a first-timer. We sat on the steps and I'd dip her legs in, wait until she got annoyed, then let her chill on my lap. I did this for about 10 minutes, then I just stuck her in up to her tummy. The look on her face said she will so put me in the worst nursing home she can find in 40-50 years. But she got used to it quickly, I put her in her turtle floaty and we floated around the pool. She lasted longer than I expected..about 30 minutes. I put her down for a nap, grabbed the monitor and went back out. My sister was with us so we did some dives, swam around in the water for another hour. I got so burned and was SO exhausted last night! I used to swim all day, every day in the summer. I was beyond tan and tone by the time it ended, I lived for the sun and water. If we were swimming at the pool or in our own backyard, we were at the lake. I forgot how happy the summer time makes me, and I am going to keep  remembering all summer long..minus sunburns. I forgot how bad it could get..

I had more but Nick had his first night terror in a month and those wear me out..Good night!